Autism: My Blessed Gift by Meredith Myers • All About Autism Series 2011

Autism: My Blessed Gift by Meredith Myers • All About Autism Series 2011

Bird Is The Word

This post is generously submitted for the 2011 All About Autism Series ~ by Meredeth Myers:

It’s a surreal moment, the one in which you decide to face this fact: my child has Autism.

Not devastating as some would put it, but more surreal. Surreal like the moment when you’re on a rollercoaster and you’ve reached the apex of the giant drop and you creep over the edge and you realize there is no turning back now so you raise your arms and surrender…The rollercoaster ride of your life really, that phrase truly is quite the appropriate one when referring to my life at this moment. The craziest, scariest, most awesome ride…ever.

I can say that now on the other end of a major 2 ½ year research fest of, well, research. As soon as reality truly set in I was one of those parents that dove in head first, deep into all things therapy, causes, vaccines, you name it. I read and read and read, only to find at the end: confusion.

So I sit, analyzing my child, for what she isn’t doing, for the milestones she’s not reaching, forgetting about her as a person. Funny how truly crazy one can drive oneself with knowledge, expectations, guilt, only to come back around to this: no one REALLY knows. Let’s face it, they don’t, no one does, 100% for sure, KNOWS, anything for that matter.

The two things I do know for sure? I LOVE my child, for everything she is, exactly the way she is and I love God with all my heart and am forever humble in his presence for this gift of life and that’s really all I have concrete. So why don’t I focus on the things that she DOES DO and the amazing gifts she does have and pray to God for the patience and love to appreciate and nurture her completely! It’s time to truly celebrate HER for the sweetness, kindness, sensitivity, beauty, and amazing intelligence that she IS and leave the rest to tomorrow.

Once I made this ultimate decision of SURRENDER to the unknown which lies at the other side of that apex and let go of the fear that drives me to making decisions I truly don’t want to make, I am given the tools by God to handle this journey and the amazing progress my child has made because of it.

~ Blessings to all of you on this amazing journey, know that you are blessed ones to be at direct witness of these beautiful beings of light.

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9 Comments

  1. Jenny April 20, 2011 at 9:42 am - Reply

    Beautiful! Thank you.

  2. Jen April 20, 2011 at 9:36 am - Reply

    I can really relate to this. I am the queen of research, but I often find myself stepping back and realizing I am pretty much ignoring life b/c I can’t stop reading up on everything Autism. And, yeah, I just come out the other end confused. Thanks for sharing this perspective. It’s something I have to do more.

  3. Meredith (Bird) April 20, 2011 at 8:23 pm - Reply

    Thank you for your kind words, blessings 😉 It is nice to know others are out there with you..

  4. Keith April 21, 2011 at 9:00 am - Reply

    I am the Father of the Bird and very proud of what she does to help others understand the journey that parents of a child with Autism must make. As I learn more about autism I pray to God that he gives each and everyone of you, the parents, the wisdom and patience it takes to care for these special children.

  5. Meredith (Bird) April 22, 2011 at 1:16 am - Reply

    Thanks Dad for coming by, You have given me the tools to become the person that I am today and I am eternally grateful for the sacrifices that you’ve made to bring me to this point. Love you!

  6. Jennifer Froelich April 25, 2011 at 10:57 am - Reply

    Thanks so much. It’s reassuring to read of your faith in God and your appreciation for the blessing of your daughter! God bless you.

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      Gina April 25, 2011 at 11:02 pm - Reply

      Jennifer~

      Thank you for coming by and leaving kind words for Meredith!

  7. Gary April 27, 2011 at 1:44 pm - Reply

    I am the uncle to the Bird, and could never be more proud of anyone. She is an amazing person and most talented in many realms(sp). She takes the best of care of little bird. You would be blessed if you were ever to meet her.

  8. Rhonda April 30, 2011 at 10:11 pm - Reply

    oh yes. I, as did my husband, lived in denial for many years. Our own SEPARATE denial. It tore our marriage up AND brought it back together. I wish i would have reached that feeling of surrender sooner. I can’t even remember my daughters first 2 years (i was pregnant with her during Tommy’s diagnosis). Rollercoaster indeed. I’m at complete peace with it now. Now, its our life. Surrender.. such a good word comparison.

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