Is It Too Much To Ask a Child To Find Strength?

by Gina St. Aubin

C relays:

When I took J to school, I told Ms. L about the little white car. I said, “It hasn’t left his hands…he took it to the dinner table, to bed, to breakfast…just so you know…

That’s fine,” she said. “You know my single goal for J…all I want to do is to help hold him together. I just want him to get through this.

I know,” C says in response.

Ms. L continues, “I can see he’s just tired. In his eyes. I can see he’s tired not just of being tired – of not sleeping – but tired of not feeling right.

Cracked Wall by uBookworm / flickr

…and while he relays this to me, my mind struggles with being ‘available’ to hear this conversation. Everything within me screams not to listen, not to partake in this conversation for this just is not something I can hear. I can’t protect myself while I hear it. Yet, all I can think is that she’s right. Ms. L is keenly observant. J’s tired.

…and with this report from C, my wall cracks just a little more. My voice quivers, and all I can muster is, “I know. I know. But I hope he’s not too tired. I hope he doesn’t give up.

…and I wonder, is that too much to ask of a 9 year old boy whose entire life has been a fight? Every moment, of every day…even during laughter…is it too much to ask?

Or can the love in our souls continue to give him strength?

(Photo By: UBookWorm / Flickr)

Gina St. Aubin, Editor of Special HappensGina is the owner / editor, and lead author of Special Happens. She resides in Colorado where she is a wife and mother of 3, and is a member of the Board of Directors for the SPD Foundation. You can read more about her here.

Gina St. Aubin
Gina St. Aubin is a former Victim’s Advocate who now advocates for those with intellectual and physical challenges. Her eldest son is diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy, Autism, Sensory Processing Disorder, Electrical Status Epilepticus during Sleep / Landau-Kleffner Syndrome (a rare epileptic disorder causing verbal aphasia) and Developmental Delays. In June, 2012, her son also underwent a successful hemispherectomy. Gina is the editor, author and owner of Special Happens, serves as a member of the Board of Directors for the SPD Foundation, and resides in Colorado where she is a mother of 3, wife, blogger, writer and special needs advocate. You can reach Gina through various Special Happens connections on Facebook and Twitter, or email her directly.
Gina St. Aubin
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